Happy holidays!

It's New Year's eve, and in less than 12 hours, it will be 2013! How time flies...

Around this time last year, I was sick. I was having signs of HIV infection, and what should've been a season of parties, get-togethers, movie-watching and shopping was spent mostly at home in bed or at the clinic where the doctor couldn't tell exactly what's wrong except that what I have is something viral and that it was viral and it will go away on its own. (Of course she was right that it was viral, but how I wish she was right on her second remark.)

This year, I'm still sick. But I'm not ridden in bed anymore: I was able to attend christmas parties, I spent noche buena with a guy I'm dating, I treated my parents to a buffet dinner on Christmas Day, and I went to watch Sisterakas with S and my date last Saturday. Everything seem normal and I'm quite happy...

You read that right: I'm dating!

Let's call him J. I met him in RITM on December 12, the same day I got admitted for another blood transfusion. I went to RITM that day for another CBC to see how my hemoglobin count is doing. I went down to ARG to register, and there I saw him: a guy with cute smile chatting with another guy.

I kept looking at him not only because he had a cute smile, but I can't help but notice how clear his skin was. He's not artista-flawless, he's actually moreno. But if you visit RITM as often as I do, you'd observe that having clear skin is uncommon for HIV patients, either as a result of various HIV-related skin disorders or as a side effect of ARVs. (I myself have marks left by herpes zoster on my left arm, but it's barely visible now).

I bumped into him several times, but I wasn't the type who would initiate a conversation. There was one time I was sitting on a bench along the hallway when he passed by on the way to the clinic. I gave him a smile, and he smiled back! I thought that would be the start of a conversation, but he went past me and headed straight to the clinic. I thought, di siguro ako type.

When he got out of the clinic he was with two other guys. They sat in the same bench I was in, and started talking. It seemed to me the three of them knew each other for a long time already. The noise made me feel uncomfortable so I decided to go inside the clinic to ask if my CBC result is already in. Unfortunately it wasn't yet. The staff nurses noticed that my lips were very pale and hinted, I might need another blood transfusion. But that's something I was already prepared for.

When I got out of the clinic, one guy was just outside the door. I recognized him as J's friend. He asked for my number. I didn't know if it was him asking for my number or if it was J, pero di na ko nagpakipot pa, bigay agad! :)

The rest was history. A few moments later we were texting. I found out they've already left and having lunch at SM Southmall. I told him I was still waiting for my CBC and that if worse came to worst, I'd be there longer for the blood transfusion. He told me he'd go back to RITM later that day to meet other friends and see me also.

I got the CBC result a few hours later -- it was 62, the lowest I ever got. No wonder my head was throbbing like crazy and everywhere looks so bright! I called up S and told him about the result. He offered to be my bantay that night. How sweet. :)

Before the clinic closed, J, true to his words, arrived. He introduced me to L and to K, his newbie friends. I was already in the emergency room that time, waiting for a room to be vacated. J, K and L all stayed with me throughout and watched as the nurses and doctors tried to stick pink-gauge needle into veins. After 5 unsuccessful attempts, they thought I needed a break. J, K and L had to leave because J had to work, but he said if he has time he will come back to become my bantay.

I've only known J for a few hours, yet I felt like I've know him for a long time already. Magaan ang loob ko sa kanya, and I felt like he's a guy worth dating. When S arrived, I told him about J and he said he's happy for me. (Yey, may approval na agad si J! Hehe)

We continued to text while I was in the hospital. After I got discharged, we saw each other again for a movie date in Trinoma on December 19th. We saw each other again on Christmas Eve and I spent noche buena with his family. We watched Sisterakas with S last Saturday, and we stayed at S place for the night.

I feel good. I never felt this good in such a long time. Sometimes I even forget that I'm sick.

We'll see each other again in January 3. Haay, I can feel that 2013 will be good to me. Please, be good to me! :)

Happy New Year everyone! :)